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A lovely new journal.

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 01:40:28 GMT

My lovely lj friends.
I've made a new journal.
The name is:
siren____siren.

I will add all of you again.
I will be waiting for your add-back!

Hm, I think I need some help to make mine all pretty.
I can't seem to get this over ride stuff down.
Hm.

I love you.
<3 Sam

New.Exciting.Yey.

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 22:29:40 GMT

I think I'm going to make a new journal.
I've had this one for 3 years now.
It's old.
It's boring.
It's laaaaame.

And I would like a new, sweet name.
Yeah.

I'll let you know what it's going to be.
Then we can still be friends.
Yeah.

My bestest bud.

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 01:00:31 GMT

I went over to my Grandma's and Aunts house today.
Hung out with my little cousins.
My 3 year old cousin, Macky is my bud.
He kept kissing me and my dad was like "I'm going to go call Lily
(his "gf") and he was like Nooooo! Then he drew me a picture and
told his parents it was for us. Awe. He's cute.

Inspired by the $ sign.

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 18:21:01 GMT

Holy Shittttttttt.
Warped Tour is going to be sweet.Saosin.
Fall Out Boy.
Atreyu.
Motion City Soundtrack.
The Starting Line.
Senses Fail.
Avenged Sevenfold.
Matchbook Romance.
Thrice.
Relient K.
Mae.
Hawthorne Heights.
Reggie & the Full Effect.
Halifax.
Greeley Estates.
and many more.

I'm currently taking donations to help me fund my warperd tour experience, if you'd like to donate anything, heck I'll take pennies, let me know! I love you guys alot

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Ohh-hi-ohh.

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 03:25:22 GMT

I went up to Ohio last night.
I saw Abby and Bags.
I went and stayed with Ang.
It was fun.

Share some information.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 01:24:10 GMT

I have stolen this from ___outlaw_

Some of you I hardly know at all, but you friended me and I thank you. But here's a thought: Why not take this opportunity to tell me a little something about yourself. Any old thing at all. Just so the next time I see your name I can say: "Ah, there's so and so...she wears mismatched socks." I'd love it if every single person who friended me would do this. Yes, even you people who I know really well. Then post this in your own journal...if you want.....

I'm the first kid to write of hearts, lies, and friends..

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 04:00:03 GMT

I went to the zoo today.
I saw elephants,zebras,alpacas,and many more.
The alpacas were my favorite.

I get to go home for the night on the 6th.
It's only for a day, but at least I get to see my friends.
My three cousins are staying the night tonight.
They're boys. Ages, 4,3,1. I love them.

Well, Happy fourth to everyone.
Don't do anything I wouldn't do.
<3

"I'll be your friend in hell, until then I despise you...."

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 06:38:57 GMT

"....and I probably always will."

So I had to go to my uncles house for this sweet cookout today. I lie. Those people are fucking idiots.

Anyways, later on, my brother,his girlfriend,my sister,and I went to the mall. I got this cute Bleeding Through shirt,Earrings,and three things of eyeliner. Note: If there is any reason you need to ever get me something (Birthday, Christmas,Etc..) I absolutely love these things: Makeup,shoes,books,bags,and music. =)

My lip is healing quite nicely. I can't wait to get my other side done and put studs in. Ahhh, I miss Ohio so much. I never thought I'd say that considering I hate that place, but I miss my friends so so much. I can't wait to see them! I wish I could shrink all my friends and carry them around in my pocket.

"An amazing illusion was made with trick photography."

I want a boyfriend. </3

I'll tear your ass up like we just got married.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 03:36:40 GMT

I watched The Notebook yesterday.
I want what Allie had.
That's all.

So I love my friends. They are my life, really I couldn't live without them. Especially the one's I've met throught the good ol computer.

Ab-bee..oh my goodness, you have been an awesome friend. So many memories of us just having fun and being stupid.

Linz..Great times in our 'band', you've been a fun person to be around the past 4 years I've known you.

Josh Bickle...I've known you for a year now. I got to see you at the GBT show and we hugged. It was nice. You can always cheer me up.

Angie-lala...What can I say, you're a great friend and always there for me.

Tahnee...You are so so awesome. Your advice rocks and you're so nice!

Dustinnn...Omg, you are seriously the coolest. You always crack me up,haha

Dave-ho...You're my husbandy. I heart you. You make me happy.

Zak...BFF! You are sweet as hell. Pure awesomeness.

So yes, I love you all the most.
I've been thinking lately and I've come to the conclusion that I need to just drive somewhere and just get away from everything and everyone...
I just feel so..I don't know..I need a hug.Sigh.

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 04:45:03 GMT

I talked to my Tielurr today on le telephone.
He is so adorable, seriously I would marry that kid.
He makes me happy.

In other news.
I love my friends.
I love All of you.
Thanksss for being sweet as hell.

EDIT:
I would never marry anyone except my Husbandy, David.

I can be your memoryyyyyyyy.

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 05:26:31 GMT

I have stolen this from my good friend Dustin.
Do it, it shall be fun.

Post a memory of me. It can be anything you want. It can be good or bad, just as long as it happened. Then, post this in your journal to see what people remember about you.

Letters.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 19:08:50 GMT

So, you know what I absolutely love?
Getting letters in the mail.
Sooooo I think you, as my awesome friend,who I love, should write me one.
Yes? Yes.

This is my current address.

Sam Ward
1048 Nosegay RD
White Bluff,TN 37187

I will indeed write back, it would be like..we're pen pals!
It will also be fun, I promise. And it will make me very very happy.

<333

Hold me down.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 18:59:35 GMT

"Hold Me Down"

I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.

I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however, you hold me down.

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloomed..
How will I break the news to you?

Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out.
You hold me down.

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloomed..
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you?

GOOD WITH GRENADES!!

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 00:40:55 GMT

I forgot to mention in my last entry that Good With Grenades is definately my favorite band hailing from Arizona.
I must of hit my head and forgot about it.
But seriously, they rock. Especially that bassist, Josh Bickle. He's pretty hot. and he rocks. you should probably love him.

and the band. They're awesome.

Add them on myspace. www.myspace.com/GOOD WITH GRENADES

You won't regret it.
Also, check them out on purevolume.com
More songs on there you won't find on myspace.

Seriously, they are sweet.
Befriend.
Listen.
Rock.
Enjoy.
Love.
GWG.

<33 Sam

Arizona..again.

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 17:46:54 GMT

Oh and another thing.
A couple of my favorite bands all happen to be from Arizona.
Weird, huh?

Jimmy Eat World.
The Honorary Title.
The Format.

Yey.
They rock.
Listen.
Dance.
Enjoy.
<3

..arizona....ARIZONA..Arizona..

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 17:45:14 GMT

I'm so ready to move there.
Next summer for sure, I promise.
With my parents moving and me graduating, I just wasn't ready this year.
I can't wait though, I love it out there. It shall be exciting.
When I get back up to ohio, I'm going to get a job and put away money for a new car and to move to arizona with. Angela and I each want to have around $5-7,000 to go out there with. So from August until next July, I need to save up at least $15,000 for AZ and a newer car. Think I can do it?
Oh and if any of you live around the Phoenix area, we should hang out when I come. I also think I might be going out there in the spring time to check it out once last time before I make my decision. yep.

In other news...
My friend Nate in Texas and I are no longer friends I guess.
I've known him for like 6 or so months and we were close.
He moved out of his parents and in with his girlfriend and ever since then he's been rude to me. Won't answer his phone, reply to any messages, and just yesterday he deleted me off myspace without even an explanation. I have not done anything to him, I haven't even talked to him in like 2 months so I don't understand why he's acting like this.
Oh well.I can live without him. I guess. =(

Well if you read this whole entry, Kudos to you. Sorry for the long boring pointless stories, but that's what's going on in my life at the moment.

Fun.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 22:02:22 GMT

How tall are you? 5'2

Do you own a gun? nope

Rehab? nope

Have you ever killed an animal? yeah

Are you Irish? maybe?

What do you think of hot dogs? gross

What's your favorite Christmas song? blue christmas

What is your favorite smell? sweet pea

What do you prefer to drink in the morning? orange juice,tea

Do you do pushups? no

Have you ever done ecstasy? nope

Are you vegan? no, but I'm vegetarian

Have you ever been caught having sex? nope

Have you been shot? yes, by a bb gun in the head

Have you ever been hospitalized? yeah.

Do you like painkillers? if they're gonna help.

What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? don't know.

Do you own a knife? no

Do you have A.D.D.? sometimes

Do you love the pain a tattoo brings? probably not

top 5 thoughts at this exact moment:
1. My lip hurts
2. I hate certain people
3. I'm tired
4. I miss ohio.
5. I need money.

last 5 people you talked to:
1. My sister.
2. Mom.Dad
3. Angela.
4. Store Clerk.
5. Grandma

Name the Last five Things You Have Bought:
1. MCS CD
2. Starbucks
3. Fabric
4. AP magazine
5. Body Spray

Name Five Drinks You Regularly Drink:
1. water.
2. Dr.Pepper
3. Arizona Green Tea
4. Coke.
5. and some more water.

Last time you Cried, and why? The other day. Lip.

What's In Your CD Player? Motion City Soundtrack, commit this to memory

What CD player? my portable

What's Under Your Bed? idk

What Time Did You Wake Up Today? 9:30

Current Hair? ew

What are you wearing? coheed and cambria shirt, jeans

Current Worry? Everything.

Current Love? My friends.Family.

Current Hate? Certain friends, the hottness.

Favorite Place To Be? Arizona

Least Favorite Place? where I'm alone.

If You Could Play An Instrument? Keyboardsss.

Favorite Colors? Green,red,black.

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To? Jess.

One person From Your Past You Wish You Could be with Right Now? Grandpa.

Where Would You Like To Go? Anywhere.

Where Do you want to live? Arizonaaaa.

Favorite food? potatoes.

Color of most clothes you own? probably black. Cuz I'm gothic like Josh B.

Number of pillows you sleep with? 2

What do you wear when you go to sleep? tank top, pants.

what were you doing 12AM last night? watching tv.

What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years? Working,married..hopefully.

Are you paranoid? very much so.

Do you burn or tan? tanish.

First piercing/tattoo? Ears.

First enemy? Myself.

Last person you yelled at? Mom?

Last crush? haha

Last thing you ate? a popcicle.

If you could be a pirate, would you? Yes, I love pirates. They're sweet.

Last time you had sex? Virgin and proud.

If you could be with anyone right now, who would it be? David.

Best Sex your Ever Had? I've had hand sex with charles once. ha (not that sex)

Your full name? samantha louise ward

What songs do you sing in the shower? none

What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? idk

When and why did you last vomit? a couple weeks ago

What's in your pockets right now? nothing

what color are your bedroom walls? I don't have a bedroom at the moment.

last thing that made you laugh? My dad, he's lame.

best bed sheets you had as a child? don't remember.

favorite childhood pet? fish.

any pets now? Fish named Scout.

Do u like your teeth? sure

inny or an outty? inny.

favorite restaurant? Applebee's maybe?

describe your fingernails? short,bitten,gross.

worst injury you've ever had? my head.

What are your dreams like? weird. kinda creepy.

Do you wear contacts or glasses? no, but i need to.

do you have any piercings? ears.lip.

What shoes do you wear: green converse...

What are the last four digits of your phone: I seriously don't know.

If you were a crayon what colour would you be: green

Have u ever won any awards: I got "Dares to be different" in my graduating class this year..

How many TV's do you have in your house: 1

Do you sleep with stuffed animals? um no.

Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone or gotten stitches? yes, my wrist.

Who do you tell your dreams to? my sister, abby.

Who is the loudest friend: Charles or abby.

Who is the quietest friend: casey.

If u could pick one person to make out with who would it be? David.

What song do you want played at your wedding? 80's music. Like the Wedding Singer. haha

Lights on/off: Off.

Lip.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 22:12:57 GMT

So I finally went and got my lip pierced today.
It didn't hurt at all, except I almost passed out afterwards.
Everythings fine now.
I can't wait til it heals and I can get my snakebitessss.
Yey.

Druuugs.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 06:44:04 GMT

I've watched a couple of the greatest movies the past couple days.
Fight Club.
Blow.
The Boondock Saints.
Ahh, I love my movies.
Especially one's involving violence,murder, or drugs.
haha.

Oh well.

Gangsterrrrs.

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 09:33:41 GMT

It's going to be light out soon.
I can't seem to sleep.
Too much on my mind I guess.
My new fish is kind of creepy.
It just sits on this rock and stares at me.
Hm.

I need to get my hair cut.
It's getting too long.
I don't even have my bang things anymore.
ha

This was a pointless entry and I apologize for the lack of sleep taking over my tired brain.

I swore to God, I'd never swear again...

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 06:33:01 GMT

I got a fish today.
It's a blueish and white beta.
I named him Scout.

Anyways...
People are so immature.

I just want to be happy and drama free for one day.

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Hi.

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 22:38:58 GMT

I don't think anyone reads these entries anymore.
I use to write entries everyday and get comments.
Oh well,maybe I need to find a different journal.
I think I'm gonna go shopping next week sometime.
I'm going to go buy some stuff for our apartment.

Warped tour is slowly coming soon.
I think it's gonna be alot of fun.
Hopefully, I will have some money.
I'm way excited to hear the bands.

I miss Angie-lala Caivano.
I miss Charles LaBelle.
I miss Ab-bee Knowles.
I miss Tielurr Long.
I miss Natey Myers.
I miss Josh Bickle.
I miss Oh-hiiii-oh.
=(

<33
Sam

Hit that rock.

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 05:06:04 GMT

I'm in Tennessee for the month.
My family is all moved in to their new house.
It's nice, I like it.

I graduated Thursday night.
Finally. It feels nice.
I rear ended a girl in my grade on the way to my practice, nothing serious, I just got whip-lash and hurt my wrist.
Our bumpers kind of fell off.
Oh well.

Charles has been looking for a place for us to live.
I'm very proud of him.
I had my doubts about him, I must say.

I'm going to go get my lip pierced probably next week.
A gift from my dad for graduating.
Yey.

Well, that's all for now.
Later.
<33

Fun.

Tue, 31 May 2005 12:22:31 GMT

List twenty people you know, without looking at the bottom.
1. Angela Caivno
2. Charles LaBelle
3. Beth Ward
4. Abby Knowles
5. Katie Baglia
6. Joe McCafferty
7. Chad Sprague
8. Casey Wright
9. Ali Merrow
10. Desiree Morlock
11. Golda Carrico
12. Danny Hurd
13. Bianca Malone
14. Nate Myers
15. Tielurr Long
16. Josh Bickle
17. Tim Ward
18. Lindsay Bonfiglio
19. Nicole Dunstan
20. Justine Yanke

*Who is #8 going out with? On and off wth Paul Ott
*Is #9 a boy or a girl? girl
*Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? haha theyre both dumb so maybe
*How about #18 and #4? probably not..
*What grade is #17 in? Graduated last year
*When was the last time you talked to #12? When we went to West Virginia together about a month ago
*What is #6's favorite band? Have no idea
*Does #1 have any siblings? yes
*Would you ever date #3? no, shes my sister
*Would you ever date #7? no, hes gay
*Is #16 single? I have no idea.. we don't talk anymore =(
*What's #15's last name? Long
*What's #10's middle name? Marie
*What's #5's favorite thing to do? Drawing/painting
*Is #13 attractive? shes my cousin but yeah
*Would #14 and #19 God no
*What school does #20 go to? Manchester
*Tell me a random fact about #11? shes crazy
*And #1: Very funny
*And #3: I think shes bipolar
*Have you ever had a crush on #15? at one point
*Where does #9 live? ohio
*What's #4's favorite color? orange or yellow?
*Would you makeout with #14? yes, I love nate
*Are #5 & #6 best friends? not BEST friends
*Does #7 like #20? not really
*Does #8 like #19? nooo
*How did you meet #2? At Denny's about 2 months ago
*How did you meet #18? shes my best friends cousin
*Does #10 have any pets? cat and dog
*Is #12 older than you? yeah
*Is # 17 the sexiest person alive, or what? haha nooo

Done.

Mon, 30 May 2005 20:43:42 GMT

I decided to delete all of my entries and start over.
Most of them were negative and I would rather not have them around.
So I'm starting over, with happy and fun entries.

I had prom this weekend.
I went with my friend Joe.
It was alright. I had fun.
Although....
I fell on my face before we left the house.
My date ditched me at some points.
I got water spilled all down the front of me.

We went to a hotel afterwards and just hung out.
Me,Angela, Charles, and Joe slept in a room together.
Fun times.

I have 4 days of school left.
I graduate in..10 days.
YEY!!!!!!

I hate school. Alot. I'm so glad to be done.
Well I'm really not sure when another update will come about.
So bye for now.

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